Saturday, July 11, 2009

Keeping the faith

I guess I shouldn't have complained. In the last week, I've lost two students, sat in cat pee, got pooped on (by a bird), got 10 cold sores (in one day! on my lower lip), pooped my pants (just a little - I don't want to talk about it) and my regular church job is having some financial troubles in this turbulent economy, and so I won't be playing there until further notice. Bummer. Big bummer.

Unfortunately, this kind of thing is par for the course when you're a freelancer. Well, maybe not all the poo and pee, but the job insecurity. You may think everything is just fine, going along la-de-da, you have all your ducks in a row, and then suddenly you have no idea where your income will be coming from. As far as I'm concerned, I'm okay for now, I do have enough gigs lined up in the coming months to be okay, it's just disconcerting how fast life can change.

When I first came to New York, I was starting my graduate degree and I didn't really know any other string players. I didn't have a gig for 6 months. I laid in bed for the first month of living here and then when school started, I focused on that. When I finally got my first gig (a concert at Columbia) I was thrilled! Until I found out it wasn't a paying gig. Then I was more on the resentful side. Then, once I got my website up and running, things started to change. I got a few gigs, then a few more, then I started making connections and the work just seemed to take off. By the time I was about done with my degree, the gigs were pretty steady and I was feeling confident that I could live as a freelancer.

I need to remember to keep the faith. I know that this is a difficult time for many people, but as my husband is also low on work, it's going to be a bit tight for a little while. Who knows? Maybe it will be for the best. I do have several projects I would like to start working on and this will certainly give me some extra time to delve into uncharted waters. I can start my album, train for that 5K, work on my Russian, start Slim in 6 (from that infomercial), start a new practice routine - all those things I've been too distracted to work on. Maybe it'll be great.....

1 comment:

  1. I'm right there with you. This summer has been pretty rough for me, especially when ALL of my students cancel on me on any given week. Of course the parents don't realize or care that this is really where my bread and butter comes from.
    I just read your last post too, and want to mention that it's funny that you are interested in getting a PhD in Ethnomusicology because I was having the exact same thought last week! I am studying for the GRE anyways so that I can at least apply for the CUNY DMA program. It sucks relearning all of that math. . . . .